hes gone..........................................................

hes really gone

oh em gee...alex left me casa about a hour ago...he leaves to go back to connecticut in the morning..like 3 am or something...man..and boy oh boy am i dying...we spent most of the day just laying down on the futon in here watching tv...and in the living room watching tv..and holding each other...i loved it so much...i wish i wulda kissed him more..we barely kissed...thats a shock, eh amanda?..haha....but man...what i wuld do to see him again...at least b4 he leaves

IMA DIE!!!..i have no idea when the next time i'll be able to see him..i cant STAND!!!! being away from him!!! my heart hurts

tears fill my eyes

where are yew tonight

i need yew now more than ever

dont leave again..please never leave my side

eee...i juss wrote that as i was typing....its no good..but eh........i cant type any more...i NEED him...

im going to my room to chilax...and cry....and listen to dashboard

hopefully he'll call soon..if not im callin him..i miss him too much already...dkljafkldjflkjdsklfjdkljf

  ::cries::

Currently Playing Home for Christmas By *NSYNC see related

- the 1 that goes "merry christmas..merry christmas..merry christmas happy holidays"..haha - - - - -

yea..thats right everybody..im listening to a nsync christmas song........i like that song..so screw yew...heh

MeRry chRistmas foLks!!

I hope everybody has had a great christmas

I know yew may have all wanted me for christmas...but..what can yew do

haha only kidding!!

i got a digi camera! whooo..from santa..hahaha...im so excited..ive wanted one for a while..its fujifilm..and 4.0 megapixels..and it camcords for like a minute at a time...that minute seems like forever though..and i can camcord over and over...so it can be more than 1 minute...no sound though..but oh well what can yew do..

yea..and i got other cool stuff...but dont feel like writing about everything.

This christmas i really didnt care about presents at all...it was mainly just the holiday cheer stuff..and spending time wiff family and friends. I could care less if i got anything or not...but im really glad i got a digital camera..whoo..

and i really wanted to see alex...i  got to see him yesterday!!!! hes down til tuesday...i didnt get to see him today like i wanted to..booo...but im picking him up tomorrow hopefully from his gmas..and hopefully we get to chilax monday too. i got him a taking back sunday shirt, hawthorne heights cd..i gave them to him yesterday...and tomorrow or so im giving him the rest..which is 2 poloish shirts from american eagle..and some adidas cologne and hair and body wash...yup. ...he said hes wearing his tbs shirt tomorrow..aww....yea..and me parents got him the Underoath cd..well..really i went and got it for them..they juss gave me the money to pick out a cd..and i did good ..he likes it..whoo...i was ab to keep it..haha...and the hawthorne heights cd i got him..bc i love them both..heh

Gah..i really hope i get to see him tomorrow....it juss started raining ice a lil while ago...and im posed to pick him up in the morning from his grandmas house..and go to church then idk what....and me mommy said it depends how the roads are in order for her to allow me to pick him up...bc shes worried for my safety..which i think i can prolly drive fine in the icey stuff..and its posed to snow tomorrow..how cool.

mmm..well today was fun...kinda...i didnt wana wake up...i woke up at like 4 in the mornin..and culdnt go bak to sleep..and i was kinda hungry..so i think i woke up bc i realized i didnt eat in 2 days...i mean i just forget to eat..i dont think about eating, or i get busy doing stuff..that i just forget to eat...yea..then i finally got bak to sleep...after like 2 or 3 hrs later..and as soon as i got bak to sleep..me daddy woke me up..and said me n my bro had to hurry up n come downstairs n see what we got so then we can get ready to hit the road to go to north carolina to spend xmas wiff me daddys side of the family...i didnt wana go..bc i wanted to spend time wiff me friends and alex..since i had it planned kinda before..but then me parents decided to force me to go...it wasnt that bad like i thought..kinda boring.and i was tired..but it was kinda fun..got some cool stuff..but who cares...i took tons of pictures of me family..and stuff in the car..like postcard type pictures.. <3 ..so cool

mmmm well dunno what else to say...i didnt plan on writing this much..but oh friggin wellzerz...and its all mixed around...but hmm..at least i wrote...yup...well hope the rest of everybodys christmas is super d duper! I Love yew aLl!!!

LateR babes

+*aShLey*+

oh and chad..yew know what comes soon!...heh..

Currently Playing I'm Not Okay (I Promise) By My Chemical Romance see related

does anybody know the music url thingy for the "im not ok" song by My chemical Romance

i have it on here..but it doesnt play the whole thing...and thats me favortist sonnggg!!

if ya know it..plz let me know..i'd appreciate it..thanks so much

<3 aShLey

Currently Playing In Love & Death By Used see related

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whoo..thanks so much for givin me a new lay out randa!....hmm..for me not tellin yew wat to get...yew gave me an awesome layout! love ya hun!

a/w..yesterday was turkey day..yup...me didnt eat turkey though...bc the night b4 me mommy had me help her inject seasoning into the turkey wiff this needle thing....and it made me sad...bc we were like killin it twice kinda...and also it stilled looked like the creature..i mean yew culd still tell what it looked like a bit b4 it was dead.......but i did have ham..bc it was all cut up n stuff...i think i may be half vegetarian though lol.....wow seems like everybody is talkin ab vegetarians on xangas...and now i just did..oh well

i dont feel like writing anymore for now..ima look for some music to put on here..later

*aShLey*

last dialed numbers on your phone:
1.) alex house
2.) jordan cell
3.) jordan house
4.) maurice
5.) mitch baroody

last received numbers on your phone:
1.) alex cell
2.) maurice
3.) mommy
4.) jordan
5.) my brother

What Did You Do...
Last weekend?: saturday..went to megans grandpas funeral..sunday..went to church, out to eat wiff justin, emmy, mitchell, amanda, and september..then we all went to justin and tims house..and chilaxed for a good bit..then seppy and amanda left..and me emmy, justin, and mitchell sat around eating me hot tamales and watched fuse..haha.....then tim got there..and we talked to him...and i got a free ofa shirt! (justin and tims band...but they are changing the name of it) and a free ofa button..some stickers and cds.....then i left and went driving around...and that night was the fall festival at me church and had fun playin the games, gettin candy, making a fool of meself, chilaxing wiff some pals, and jumping in the jumpy thing wiff alyssa....then after that i went home and talked to alex..then sleep.....yupage Lol.
Yesterday?: school then

Your last birthday?: ahh..it was a sucky day...but i went to skewl..went home..chilaxed...then went out to eat at Don Hose wiff me rents, amandas rents, and some of the crew

New Years Eve?: hmm..i cant remember..i think i hung out wiff some pals 
Valentines Day?: went to school..thought about how valentines day is a bit pointless....had fun wiff my pals..and at skewl some ppl got notes that ppl had brought them a flower through skewl during the week...and i got a note!...which was unexpected..and it was from my pal Jake......then that night i went to a 70's or something liek that..dance at evonnes church..and had a blast..then spent the night at evonnes......wow..im surprised i remember it haha. 
Easter?: um..dunno..prolly went to church and to some of me familys houses..
4th of July?: hehe...wow..it was a great night.....alex was down for the weekend visiting...and amanda, maurice, september, jordan, rashad, mitch, emmy..and i think others chilaxed at me house...and alex did too <3....and we had a cookout and chilaxed...then we went driving around...and i spent time wiff my lovely super duper alex....*sigh*..i cant wait til next time he comes bak down!!!

Halloween?: ha..i can remember that..bc it was last week.....or hmm..can i?..Lol.....i went to church, out to eat wiff some of the crew, tim and justins house..then the fall festival at me church
Thanksgiving?: ugh..dunno...most likely some family came over to eat..
ChristmasEve?: my aunt and 2 lil cousins from oregon were down ...and me mommys side of the family chilaxed at me house..and we had a blast..talkin, watching some movies and tv, and opened presents and all that good stuff    
Christmas Day?: hmm..i think i woke up late..almost forgot it was xmas..went downstairs..had presents under the tree for me ..then got ready for the day..went to a bunch of me familys houses...and ugh..i duno
A week from now?: prolly at skewl..dunno
A month from now?: around xmas break..hopefully alex will be down.....and we'll be able to spend time together...ahhadfjlsdjf a..i cant wait! I love him so much!!
A year from now?: hmm...how am i posed to know!..hopefully havin fun.

Currently
Who are you talking to?: cha'd, tearra, blake...and my mommy..bc she just now called wanting to know what i want for supper..shes gonna bring me home taco bell kids meal..wooo!!
What are you listening to?: "over and over" by nelly f/ tim mcgraw..woo!..its awesome..it plays on my backgroud
What/Who are you thinking about?: ALEX!!
What are you eating/drinking?: my saliava..haha
What are you looking forward to?: the next time i see alex...getting my waver...and my mommy bringing home my taco bell kids meal..mmm..its the best! 
What are you dreading?: skewl tomorrow..well..not too much dreading it..idk
How are you feeling?: okiez..i gotta pee now..haha
How is your hair?: its fine.  and i wore it straight today..and my bangs to the side..if ur wondering
What time is it? 7:19 PM
What are you annoyed by?: when ppl try to be who they arent...when ppl are mean...and other stufferz

When was the last time you ...
Smiled? like 2 seconds ago...when the starting line "best of me" song started playing..i love that song..... WHOA and now im smiling..for like no reason..there it goes again haha
Laughed? like 2 or 3 hours ago
Cried? umm..hmm.dunno 
Bought something? my mcdonalds happy meal today .....mcdonalds and taco bell kids meals are the best!!...prolly almost the only food i love..haha.
Danced? just a bit ago..heh
Were sarcastic? prolly sometime today
Kissed someone? sigh....last time alex was down..in july.
Talked to an Ex?: today...at skewl..joe...bc hes my good ol pal...just friends now....actually...hes kinda like a bro to me now..hahaha....hes a cool cat.